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Broken by Mercy: A Testimony from Pamela Hall
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At
the age of twenty-six, I found myself searching for hope and
purpose. Outwardly my life appeared successful, but childhood
wounds from growing up in an alcoholic home and the destructive
choices I made as a young adult left me broken and bruised.
Picture a fragile porcelain heart with large cracks and hundreds
of tiny fractures throughout it. That must have been what my
heart looked like to God. As I searched for purpose in a career
and relationships, I found nothing could fix my life. With this
realization came an invitation from God to accept Jesus Christ
as my Savior. On September 5, 1988, I accepted Christ without
fully realizing that my life had been dramatically changed
through that one decision. I like to describe my salvation
experience as the night God invaded my life. Since then, I have
never been the same.
Within the first year of becoming a Christ-follower, God
revealed His plan to heal my heart when I read a quote on a
calendar, “Before God can heal a broken heart, He has to have
all the pieces.” That night I asked God to heal the broken
pieces of my heart. It was such a simple prayer, but one that
led to an incredible transformation in my life. Little by little
and piece by piece, God answered that prayer. Like the patriarch
Jacob, I wrestled with God through the process. I wanted to
understand why He permitted certain things in my life and at
times I questioned His goodness. In the end, God taught me that
I wasn’t broken by people or circumstances, I was broken by
mercy. God purposed in His heart to use those people and those
circumstances to draw me to Him. Although I still see myself as
a work in progress, my wounds have become scars of victory. God
has proclaimed over my life just as He did Jacob’s, “… you have
struggled with God and with men and have overcome" (Genesis
32:28).
God transformed my life as I studied and applied what I learned
in the Bible. As a result, He has given me a passion for Christ,
a love for His word, and a willingness to live my life out loud
for God. He has called me to serve women and clarified that my
mission in ministry is to encourage and inspire women to pursue
intimacy with Christ through Biblical teaching and
encouragement.
Using humor, personal illustrations, and fresh insights from
God’s word, I seek to help other women see that God wants to be
intimately involved in their lives every day.
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